This entire thread was created two days after the issue was discussed and dealt with by administration. Glad to see staff working so efficiently together both in supporting a liar and kicking a man while he's down.
To clarify, because I spoke more out of frustration and hurt than sense, I feel like while the judgment of the administrators is by its very nature unquestionable, and because the site is important to me I feel compelled to follow it regardless of my personal feelings, I feel that the reaction of staff in this thread specifically is both unfair and unnecessary.
I feel compelled to speak on my own behalf regarding the issue; not in an attempt to defend my actions, but in an attempt to salvage the regard of people who apparently consider me less of a friend than I had been led to believe.
I was wrong. There is no question of that. Consider this an explanation and apology.
I cannot countenance lying in order to increase the standing of any piece of writing on the site. I acted on soulless' post because I believed and still believe it necessary to safeguard the integrity of the wiki as a whole and to punish the perpetrator of what I would consider an intolerable action. However, in so doing, I operated on clouded judgment and my words were formed more from external anger than the situation at hand.
The morning of my editing soulless' post, I was awakened early by a text message that an old friend of mine had been killed by pancreatic cancer. I was later to find that it was my friend's father, not the friend himself, but at the time I was awash in frustration and sorrow for both the death of an old friend and the fact that no one had thought it necessary to tell me he was ill.
Later that afternoon, I was involved in an altercation off site between myself and other members of staff in which my girlfriend's religious faith was heavily disparaged in her presence and in mine. She was offended, and I, already frustrated and sad, was angry.
It was only moments after this altercation that I saw soulless' post. I believe that while my intent, that is, correcting the misimpression she hoped to give, was legitimate, the motive behind my action was not.
In short, what I said was wrong, and was motivated by myself being extremely emotionally compromised at the time. It is correct that staff acted to oppose my actions.
That said, at the time I posted I was ordered by troy to edit my post, and I did so, linking the revised post and receiving no further criticism. I feel that it is unfair that no one spoke up then, but that staff waited until I was offline and had no way of making amends myself to act. I feel that it is further unfair that after the judgment was made and announced, you guys decided to make an entirely separate thread so you could talk about how awful I am.
That hurts, guys. I thought some of you were better friends to me than that, and that others were at least less… words fail me. It's said two wrongs don't make a right; I was wrong. Don't mirror my actions.
I like both the wiki and the community far too much, and have invested too much of my own effort into it, to do something stupid or simply quit the site because my feelings are hurt. I'm no kondraki, and no fishmonger. I intend to stick around and do my best for the wiki, and to keep contributing. I ask that you as members of staff and as members of the community be mature and reasonable enough to allow me to do so.
