Noting that I’ve lost a huge portion of my sanity prior to writing this; apologies if I come off as delusional.
For the last few days, I’ve been having breakdowns and have been trying to fight them off. I finally snapped yesterday and believed I was actually a sleepy burrito that just wanted to roll around on the floor and sleep. As funny as that may come off, I’m dead serious. I’ve come to the point where I’ve had enough and am desperate for changes.
For the next couple of years (hopefully less), I will be working towards reaching a goal that will most likely be the most difficult I will ever have to face in my life—this will include shutting off my emotions temporarily just so that I can get through with it. In order to make it easier for me, I will be distancing myself from the site including anyone who is part of it. I will only reach out when I severely need to and will only answer messages when necessary.
I do not plan to return to staff work until I’ve reached this goal I have in mind (this goal will be discussed with the current teams I am a part of; for anyone else who would like context, I’ve discreetly hidden hints about what’s going on), and hope to reach this goal by next summer depending on things go.
Goodbye for now, and thank you.
